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Sesshin Poems

May 8, 2024 by Doshin Kusan

Author Doshin Kusan wrote sometime in 1999, 2005, and 2010, during
sesshin


I hope you enjoy them as much as I enjoyed writing them.

How did I become an old man
When I look in the mirror
The sound in the forest is ageless.

So what is to become of me
Now that I know it does not matter
Who cares about this old bag of bones

Who is the walker of the way
The one who lives in a hut
And Forgets his hat.

The Green Mountains beckon me
The Old Antarctic Beech Trees speak to me of the Unborn
Will I ever get back to them?

Lost in the world of thoughts
I lose my true nature
The crow calls me back to the Deathless

Walking on the way
Looking back to say goodbye
Nobody is there


The desert calls me home
I turn to go on
And I find my bones
Just this moment

Walking in the primordial Forest
Just my footprints
Just this moment of perfect peace
Just this moment of perfect loneliness

How is it that it is full of sorrows
The sorrows of sorrows of sorrows
The sorrow sorrows the sorrows


It is 6.10 am
Breakfast soon
And then I will call her

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The Sound of the Southland.

May 8, 2024 by Doshin Kusan


I was in a state of knowing recently: that I was not hearing. I stopped
moving and I did not hear anything, not even the first Australians
singing. I wondered if all the first people had begun to die. I struggled
to hear them singing and then I could not hear the didgeridoo or any
sound.


I was deep in my dream of no sound in the middle of the Southland.
The sand was hot on this summer day. I could not hear anything,
not even a rustle of wind nor the movement of the earth. Not even
the sound of a bird’s feathers in flight.


There was no sound of the movement of feet traveling this land, or
people eating and laughing. I saw these long-lost people and they
appeared as birds as they were flying away from me without sound. I
saw them looking at me with their painted faces and saw them as my
own noiseless painted face. Oh, how I wished I could hear them.
I felt a deep sadness as if I was in a crowded city and I could not hear
anyone else. I was dead to the sound of people, in these noisy cities.
I wanted to see the earth with noise.


I found myself in a deep river canyon and I felt the cold of the water.


I found myself on a high mountaintop with a strange mist drifting
down on me until the river disappeared in front of me.


I awoke bushwalking on a track with no one else to be seen. If I
listened carefully. I could just begin to hear a whisper of our
ancestors beginning to play on the walls of cliffs.

I could hear these quiet first people come alive and bring life to this
Great Southern Land. They are still near us; their songs are safe, and
we need them to sing to us.


-Doshin Kusan

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Soto Zen Buddhism: Searching for Quality of Life and Learning about emptiness.

May 8, 2024 by Doshin Kusan

Author Reverend Doshin Kusan 3 May 2024

Exploring the conscious mind and using experiences in our daily lives with the author’s own experiences and mistakes.

This quote is from Joko Beck, a Zen teacher with The Ordinary Mind Zen. Joko died in 2011. This is an idea about Zen:

“ Caught in the self-centred dream: only suffering :
Holding to self-centred thoughts: exactly the dream;
Each moment, life as it is: the only teacher :
Being just this moment: compassion’s way”.
( Joko Beck, Zen teacher. )

This modern Zen Buddhism verse captures the nature of the conscious mind. This verse emphasizes that we need to go into our inward knowing to truly learn. In many ways, Zen is a process that needs the practitioner to go inward to find their awakening.
“The Song of Zazen” is another Zen chant, that also highlights and suggests that you need to understand how you become blocked by your usual conscious way of being in the world. Zen prepares us and shows us how we can escape.

“How sad that people ignore the near
And search for truth afar:
like someone in the midst of water.
Crying out in thirst
Like a child of a wealthy home.
Wandering among the poor.

Lost on dark paths of ignorance:
We wander through the six worlds :
From dark path to dark path, we wander
When shall we be freed, from birth and death?”
(Hakuin Zenji)

These two chants are good examples of the ideal Zen process to open up your own closed way of being. It seems that Western people use much learning from the outside. The rhythm of movement from outer to inner and back again is forgotten in Western society. Perhaps there is a deep process that keeps many people lost in the phenomenal world. Zen can balance the way of learning by making a pathway to finding emptiness, compassion, and wisdom.

There needs a dedicated understanding of meditation to balance our outside learning with our inside learning. Much of what I will explain comes from my own experience. Strangely: I will begin this article by explaining my beginning of meditation by dabbling in karate training in the early 1970s.

I began to love Karate and training and attended 2 times a week for 2 hours a day. I tended to have many injuries: a broken nose, opened bloody eyes, damaged legs, and a dislocated leg. During my ‘build-up’ to my black belt grading I started to do 7 days a week 4 hours of training. I also trained at home 7 days a week doing 350 bare-knuckle press-ups and 600 sit-ups before I went to work. I became engrossed with my training. Somehow, I got to work on time. You may have guessed that I was never a great karateka. My practice somehow seemed to be changing how I saw the world.


One vivid moment I remember, was when I seemed to have very clear perceptions and experiences during each moment. I started to have strong experiences of connectedness. I would like to explore some of these experiences that I had in my early days of Karata and Zen training. One day while running through the grass at Centennial Park in Sydney I looked back and found I had left my footprints in the grass. I had a sudden feeling of really belonging and understanding my place in the universe. The symbol of the footprints seemed to calm me and made me very peaceful.


I remember much later in Zen training that I had similar experiences. When I did a long 21-day Zazen by myself, I felt a strong feeling of loneliness and a feeling of dying. I wanted to escape the retreat. I started to do long meditations, walking and running, and doing 15-18 hours of meditation a day of Zen. I stayed with my Zen practice and started to understand suffering and happiness. Yes, I was lonely and frightened of dying but these feelings subsided during the 21-day solo retreat. I think I was one of the lucky people who could manage heightened periods of pain. I handle Zen sitting very well. Our Zen group became known as Soldier Zen. Members of that Zen group still laugh at the name when we get together.


My meditation came when I started to do Transcendental Meditation and then I discovered Zen Buddhism. The two main Zen types are Soto and Rinzai. Soto encourages meditation and Rinzai encourages Koan practice. A koan is a non-intellectual difficult question. The idea is to help people live with the understanding of emptiness. You are then able to understand how you become caught in the phenomenal world.


Soto Zen has “Just Sitting ” which helps students meditate and learn how to do the more complicated “Silent illumination”. Silent Illumination is a style of meditation that has been developed in China and It has become popular as a Buddhist Zen practice. Silent Illumination allows the student to just sit and allow meditation to gently emerge, and for them to experience the process of knowing themselves. This style of learning suits the Soto School of Zen.


Silent Illumination works well in a sangha situation where students are meditating together. There is less need to take students to Dokusan (interview) and away from the sangha: and less disturbance for students. Senge (1992) suggests a learning community is a place where people continue learning together. A sangha is a Buddhist place for learning in a group. Silent illumination helps students discover and create their reality.
However, these processes require that people fully understand how enculturation and socialization inhibit their experiences. For some lucky people who have insight, learning is easy, but for most learning is always difficult.


Often individuals hold inconsistent values because their values are held back in awareness. Neville (1992) suggests that socialization and enculturation depend on subconscious processing. Scott-Peck (1993) suggests that consciousness sometimes can be so painful that people anesthetize themselves, and he goes on to say people are prevented from moving forward to self-knowing. Piaget (1962 ) suggests that people are absorbed in the ego and the external world. Another author, Bawden (1994) suggests that they are attempting to bring light from the dark. Silent illumination is achieving knowledge of form and emptiness. Zen has meaning because it allows inner learning to bring forth a deeper understanding of compassion and wisdom.
Neville (1989) believes we are trapped in a trance-like state. And that all our habitual behavior, body movements, narrow focus, beliefs, and realities are all induced by our cultures. Zen is a way out of our cultures. Silent illumination practiced by Soto Zen Buddhist students is one way of helping students escape from this trance.


Neville (1989) suggests a zen-like process of self-observation and paying attention to everything in the world and everything in yourself. Self-remembering is a diligent expansion of consciousness to be able to keep the whole of your being in awareness. This is very much like the Ideas of Sheng-Yen and Guo Gu (2021) Silent Illumination. Much of Soto Zen school uses self-observing and paying attention to everything in your world and everything in yourself. “The Great Prajna Paramita Heart Sutra”, suggests that when we see clearly, all our entanglements are from the phenomenal world and are the reasons for our suffering.


Many people begin Zen practice to find a way out of suffering, and there are many other reasons for meditation. I am only working with the idea of suffering and pain. People look at how to work with pain and suffering and try to find a liveable level of comfort. Levine (1987 ) summarises this koan as “Should I live or should I die”. A koan is a conundrum, outside of intellectual understanding, or a device used in Zen to explore the mind and clear the heart. He suggests and describes a koan as a way of entering the moment. I sense that many people use conditioning to prevent them from experiencing the pain of this moment. Zen can bring about a reality that has been hidden for years and years.


The reason for doing Zen is to improve our lives and to improve people who become part of a sangha and learn to be compassionate and caring. Quality of life is not about our standards of living. Perhaps the quality of life is not constrained by logic.

“Meares (1988) writes :
Quality of life.
Has no purpose
Because its being
is beyond where purpose lives

Quality of Life
Is like the dew
It comes unseen
And brings a blessing
To those on whom it falls

Quality of life
is the essence of being
Like the wind
It cannot be seen
Only the effects of it.”

Quality of life does not come from our material being but comes from the very opposite. It comes from our awareness of our humanity. The purpose of Zen is to free our minds from the contradiction of logic. To let the mind go beyond what is normally considered to be sensible. Freedom to experience more. Meares (1988) advocates a simple meditation not too different from Soto Zen. This is a Meditation to enhance our life. Quality of life is when the flow of life is enhanced when we let Zen Buddhist meditation into our lives.


Meares(1988) talks about the qualities that spring from love, compassion, and acceptance of others and ourselves. There is something of a non-forcing in meditation. You can describe it as “Just sitting”. Just sitting Is very common in the Soto school of Zen Buddhism. Neville (1989 ) describes this process as no force, no striving, no contemplation, or any way of concentrating on the breath. I was introduced to a simple Navajo Chant by Professor (Bird) in 1994 at my university which helped me drop my enculturation and shadows,

Yet The Navajo Chant is beyond the shadow.
“The mountains. I become part of it.
The herb, the fir tree, I become part of it.
The morning mists, the clouds, the gathering water,
I become part of it
The wilderness, the dewdrops, the pollen
I become part of it”
(Bird)1994


This strong personal need to learn a new quality of life can be found in Zen Buddhism. The Great Prajna Paramita Heart Sutra points to how Zen students should understand and be transformed by deep suffering. We can see the emptiness when we are open to others and shift from seeing ourselves to seeing others. We begin to see the whole quest for perfect wisdom and transcend birth and death. Then we see there is no self apart from the interplay of reality. There is no old age and death.

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Bowden, R.1994
Beck, J.C
Benzwie, T. 1987
Bird, G. 1994
Boulton, D. 1992
Caine, R.N. and Caine, G. 1991
Egger, G. 1981
Gardner, H. 1985
Guo Go 2021
Isaacs, W.N.
Kabat-Zinn, J. 1990
Kolb, D. 1984
Lazear, D. 1990
Laughlin, C.D. Jr, 1990
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Levev, J. 1987
Lidell, L. 1987
Maturana, H. R. 1987
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Piaget 1962
Senge 1992
Scott-Peck 1993
Sheng-Yen 2021
The Great Prajna Paramita Heart Sutra

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I Woke Up One Night

January 4, 2024 by Doshin Kusan

I woke up one night; there was no rain; or thunder, or hail; or sideways rain,
I moved some blinds and the moon was still full,
I imagined the blue-purple water Lillies, I had seen some days ago.
I could see my little dam in the full moon. Was my little dam full yet?
It was calling out for rain. It was neither full nor empty my little dam.
I was enjoying the full moon, It reminded me of Zen
The shadows, the dark trees, and the full round moon.
Earth, I love as I stand calm and safe in this warm moon above,
And then I look up and there is the full moon,
And then I noticed my, connection to all the shiver of suffering.
Connected to all people, things and birds, animals, and this moon.
I wondered about those who had their last December Day.
People playing at the edge, and the adventure, and the loss.
Had they embraced the water in love and hate,
They seemed to pull all they could from water raging,
Life lost and sadness, the suffering.
I wondered about my own life of adventure in the green bush
The people we love and those we never meet,
Our life of love, sadness, and suffering
And yet, and yet I wonder.

– Rev. Doshin Kusan Roshi

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Suffering, sadness and anguish by Reverend Doshin Kusan

March 28, 2021 by Doshin Kusan

Author Reverend Doshin Kusan

Suffering, Sadness and Anguish  21/3/21

The talk today will be about suffering. Buddhism is about working with suffering and finding a way out of suffering. The Four Noble Truths; one of the first talks the Buddha gave after his enlightenment throws light on the real issues of suffering and how to overcome the impact on us. This was the first zazenkai to be held at the Forest Way Zen in Doonan since the ordination on 8th March 2020. We had all been impacted by covid-19 and this was a wonderful day to come together again and sit a zazenkai and see into each person’s eyes instead of staring at a zoom image.

The last 15 months have brought great sadness and suffering to the world. Some countries have been able to avoid large number of deaths and have not had the problem of dealing with overfull hospitals and lack of life saving equipment. Democracies have been some of the best of the worlds countries to control covid-19. However, Vietnam has been the most successful of the communist countries with no deaths.

The most successful of the democracies is New Zealand. Australia was very successful at controlling Covid-19 but started out to control the economics of  the pandemic rather than  to look after the health issues of the Australian population. The treasurer of Australia  shouted out at one early news conference, “ think of the cost.” I think the Governments of Australia  then realized what was happening in this  pandemic and this was not the way to go. But there was much suffering with 909 deaths.

People found that they could not see their family, and this brought much suffering and then they had to watch their elderly family members through the outside windows of nursing homes. All they could do was to say goodbye from outside as their family member died. So much suffering. So much suffering from fear and helplessness for all the people in Australia and in the world.

We became listless and more frightened as we  obeyed  all the lock downs and other lifesaving instructions. We watched in disbelief as we saw the USA and the UK and most of Europe let loose the Pandemic on the world. Over 550,000 American  and over 130,000 UK citizens  died. It seemed that authorities of the world strongest countries let people die. Many people refused  to take responsibility for wearing marks and following personal distance recommendations. Many people refused to believe that covid 19 was real and one of my students said it was “ beat up”. 

This was a period of  great danger for people. And  I think this brought up a true idea of suffering. There was very little we could do to change things and we had  little control over our lives. The advanced countries of the world seemed to take a cavalier attitude to saving lives.

These were real issues about life and death and suffering. When it comes to  ordinary problems mindfulness meditation helps.  I call these issues ordinary issues in life. I want to talk about life and death issues today.

I also want to position Zen Buddhism  as a way to help people see in a different way when  working with real dread and fear of death. This is a great suffering for us all. I believe that we often try to pretend that we can keep death at bay by not thinking about it. Maybe we use alcohol drugs, sex, or some other kind of habit to avoid our issues of life and death. Do we avoid the question what is life all about, or what is the meaning life? Do we question why am I here? What happens when I die? There are many other questions that we do not deal with as well.

We might become  work alcoholics to avoid being in the “now”.  Do we put off being with our families because we are chasing something that will let us feel peace? All beings die and this is the issue for all of us . We have a misunderstanding of death and zen meditation can help us find the way through the terror of death. This is what the Five Remembrances , say about death,

          “ I am of the nature to grow old; there is no way to escape growing old.

           I am of the nature to have ill health; there is no way to escape having ill health.       

           I am of the nature to die; there is no way to escape death.

           All that is dear to me and everyone I love are of the nature of change;

           there is no way to escape being separated from them.

            My deeds are the closet companions. I am the beneficiary of my deeds. My deeds are ground on which I stand.”             

Maybe when we first read The Five Remembrances, we balk at reading them because they sound so negative. but as we practice and repeat this liturgy, we become aware of the reality of the verse. We see that we need to find another way of dealing with life and death. When we begin Zen, we see a sense of the impermanence of all things. The more we practice Zen meditation the more we see impermanence and we find that we see into who we are. But we see the impermanence, but we do not want to change, do we? Could we only let go of the idea of being an individual with a gigantic ego and see the connection we have with all the beings of the universe. The connection of being  the whole universe.

Look at the number of divorces each year in Australia, around 40%-50% and it gets no better for second marriages  around 50%. Just so much for control maybe this will be the right person this time. Not many people come through a divorce without as great deal of suffering.    

However, we still cling to taking control. Many meditation techniques even suggest  we should take control during our meditation. This directive can become very driven by new meditation  students. It can become a problem for new practitioners.  We almost strangle ourselves with setting goals and plans and taking control. Maybe we go crazy for a while and lose control completely and go wild. That seems some form of control.

Then we go back to be fully in control again. Almost doing the very thing we wanted to give up years ago. Over and over and we seem caught in some kind of “Dependent Arising”. If we are lucky, we stay doing Zazen and then one day we surrender to having no control and we recognize  that we have no control and maybe we start to see who we are. But we do have a little control and that gets us going on ego thing again. But fortunately, we start to see how to  live with a sense of love and acceptance. We see how our controlling is very ego based and destructive.

There is just working with suffering and watching gently how it arises and goes away . When we look at how so much of our early life has conditioned us, we see that much still remains hidden from us and there is much to do. These issues come from our “greed hatred and ignorance” and cause affliction in our life. They slowly disappear as we meditate more. In a sense these issues are hidden beyond our consciousness. The Nirvana Sutra  says,

                “All mortals have the Buddha-nature. But it is covered by darkness from which they can’t  escape.  Our buddha-nature is awareness: to be aware and to make others aware .To realize awareness is liberation.”  (R. Pine. P79).

How do we rid ourselves of suffering? There is just working with suffering. We try often and often find we are not ready to give up our suffering. In some ways “my suffering” has been a friend for so long and I have lived it all my life.  It seems absurd  “that we can just let it go”. I know who I am ,and I have tried most of my life to change. And this person who is not an Asian Buddhist has suggested that. It seems this is a cultural thing and I have noticed this issue often in new students of Zen.

Some of my students want to change Zen rather than change themselves as changing themselves, is so difficult. I remember that The Buddha refused to teach his old students who had left him when he gave up the ascetic practices of Hindu tradition  and began to practice the “middle way”. They insisted he teach them. Some students have told me that they will leave the group unless I change the Zen practice to suit the way they see it. I know this is the Ego talking and the last attack on change that is needed in Zen  practice.

This is the time that students might leave or not come regularly, and this is often the time that students try to find a way out of zen. I can do very little but get them to see and  watch this process of ego and pride and fear. I help Them to see  what they are doing at this very moment  and to help them do more meditation. I help students to commit to practice. There are many ways we can practice Zen, and it is not only when we are meditating. So, this is just being with the practice. It is becoming  Zen.

References

(Red Pine, translation) The Zen teaching of Bodhidharma, North point press Farrar, Straus and  Giroux  New York, 1997

The Five Remembrances, Soto liturgy  2021

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Sesshin Poems

Author Doshin Kusan wrote sometime in 1999, 2005, and 2010, duringsesshin I hope you enjoy them as much as I enjoyed writing them. How did I become an old manWhen I look in the mirrorThe sound in the forest is ageless. So what is to become of meNow that I know it does not matterWho […]

The Sound of the Southland.

I was in a state of knowing recently: that I was not hearing. I stoppedmoving and I did not hear anything, not even the first Australianssinging. I wondered if all the first people had begun to die. I struggledto hear them singing and then I could not hear the didgeridoo or anysound. I was deep […]

Soto Zen Buddhism: Searching for Quality of Life and Learning about emptiness.

Author Reverend Doshin Kusan 3 May 2024 Exploring the conscious mind and using experiences in our daily lives with the author’s own experiences and mistakes. This quote is from Joko Beck, a Zen teacher with The Ordinary Mind Zen. Joko died in 2011. This is an idea about Zen: “ Caught in the self-centred dream: […]

I Woke Up One Night

I woke up one night; there was no rain; or thunder, or hail; or sideways rain,I moved some blinds and the moon was still full,I imagined the blue-purple water Lillies, I had seen some days ago.I could see my little dam in the full moon. Was my little dam full yet?It was calling out for […]

Suffering, sadness and anguish by Reverend Doshin Kusan

Author Reverend Doshin Kusan Suffering, Sadness and Anguish  21/3/21 The talk today will be about suffering. Buddhism is about working with suffering and finding a way out of suffering. The Four Noble Truths; one of the first talks the Buddha gave after his enlightenment throws light on the real issues of suffering and how to […]

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